Falling Velvet

Not for the show or glory, but for the earthling experiences to ponder n evolve. Past has the keys to future, break the linear patterns n make it like water flow, evolve like movements in continuum. 

It's the empty space that makes the music too. I had past two years of intense healing death rebirth period stopping doing anything else,  plus past ten years taking care of loved ones. However, now flowing into the next continuum.

I am still and forever discovering the new ways of being and existence, past still teaches me and guides me forth.  The universe has infinite ways of being indeed, always a miracle to witness n let it living and flow thru me. 

This short "Falling Velvet" was like a mini draft inspired by my own life's struggles violences and also witnessing the falls of other fellow beings and thus  think deeply how we all can fall gracefully like nature changing seasons, tree leaves fall to the ground, then become rich soils for the new seeds to grow. Less violence more grace in manifestations actions in this duality world.

May all beings on earth experience and discover the pieces of life by heart & peace that were born as gifts in all of our primal beings.

*Picture/ Video: 2021/11/14 

Falling Velvet, screening at the Yard Theater, Vastlab Experimental Film Festival, Filmmaker's QnA session

Falling Velvet Filmmakers QNA

202412隨手記

 關渡大橋一片茫很像山水畫//此茫非彼茫是自然的茫//最好的盲//水波蕩漾深呼吸的忙//畫說最近又要開始像小學生一樣玩功筆了//前幾個星期在街上晃著晃著瞄到騎樓下的一個書法攤販//盯著他的筆墨和幾本經書心經發呆//呆著呆著並沒有待//想來就是一個過客的引路人//引呀引的終於去文具店買了默默想了很久的水彩盒//一朵花//兩朵花//喔三八阿花本來就是花//見花是花見招拆招的話//人心人性的嘩//嗯嗯很滑//滑溜溜的猾//天雨路滑你可千萬不要太猾//划過了就不再回頭不可複製的畫//宇宙的話

202412 隨手記

圖片： 創作者 enchanted rubbish 

Writing the Self | Performing the We

 「Those who are familiar with my past performances and variant artworks know that I often used the word "vulnerability" and "naked soul". 

In different events in my life, also every day life, I continue to learn this, humbly and still find it amazing. I am forever a student of life. 

A snapshot of me in performance illustrates the full naked soul, a vulnerable human, that can be broken and moved all the time.  

No plan. No conventional choreography. Just using my body to paint a landscape that allows the spirit coming thru. 

But as I often say: vulnerability is showing the naked soul , is not the naked body. It's vibrations are thick thru time like wine or food stewed for a long time & is utterly beautiful. That's one of  the gifts I can give to the world」

I said the above to the art critic who studies and writes about  my work and makes inquisitive interesting questions to evoke me to put feelings into words. Thank her sincerely for the initiating act.

I laugh, & continue to say: 

「I don't need a critic, as I have been myself the hardest critics of myself in former lifetime.

Those days are gone. Now I need a lover. 

So I began to become a lover to myself. 」

2024的最後一個月之瘋話雪悅

 以前去印度駐村的照片在整理時跑出來

當時連回台灣後動作都鬆歪歪真是可愛呀哈哈！

那邊的日子極其單純： 

喝奶茶、 靜默地盯著天空好幾個小時、鳥飛過和同行人說一句：「那是什麼鳥啊？」「也許是kingfisher?」「嗯嗯」、繼續坐著享受心靈平和無所求的時光、吃飯、專心吃飯因為要找出適合手抓的方式否則吃不到好吃的、睡覺用睡袋睡在簡陋的土地上、神經質的聽著一堆人大通舖的呼吸漸漸睡去、醒來、沒電沒訊號手機是廢物、在小筆記本本裡塗鴉+把採集的當地植物葉子乾花瓣放裡面、寫詩散文、哼歌、一起慢走去其他村落、教當地沙漠古老遊牧民族跳舞瑜伽、中暑、休息、聽晨課聽到睡著、聽到宇宙哲學後講到人類啥啥就飄走、等等等。

照片很多， 自行想像，這樣較有趣 ~*~

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前幾日為了回應一位不認識歐洲藝評寄來的信件， 錄了兩段隨意的錄音。這位藝評提出兩點要探討我的作品。中文翻譯覺得都有些奇怪，建議有興趣的慢慢看網上的英文解說順便練英文。

我和她回信說， 自從很久以前我已經離開認真鑽研各種“主義”的階段了，尤其是新名詞， 基本上聽過但也就只有聽過，很尊敬的但很誠實的說太多的blahblah我大腦容量有限所以選擇性的接收外來任何訊息。不過為了準備回應她的一些深的問題，我會基本的閱讀一下這兩個的意思。

有唸哲學出身的朋友們， 歡迎私訊我告訴我你們認為的上面兩項是什麼，以免到時我胡說八道天馬行空氣死人呀 XD 之所以做作品而不是去寫書也是因為如此不是嗎？

分享一下這兩段錄音，都是英文， 不要再問我我們都是台灣人為什麼要說英文？ 不好意思那你對台灣人的見解真的是太狹窄了！我們不但有對彼此說英文的，還有說客家話的、印尼話越南印度話的、各種各國話的都有，還有說外星語的呢 哈哈😏😁 Freedom of Speech~

完整的藝評文要等之後出版成英文版再分享囉。

祝大家安好順流 🙏

1）https://on.soundcloud.com/yVT6i

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Ps: I miss snow❄️ ⛄

Thursday？！

 突然想到Andy Warhol 的時空膠囊， 和自己的衛生紙與花瓶和黑貓的故事。

衛生紙故事發生在歐洲；花瓶發生在美國， 黑貓發生在台灣。

想到榮格說的：

「與其做好人， 我寧願做一個完整的人」

完整需要探索自我，有時和別人一起，有時各自像平行宇宙太空船，有時在這個時空次元，有時在XKW的另次元裡穿梭。

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昨天拜友的Netflix帳號終於看了「星期三」影集。有人說那個叫星期三的小女孩像我以前。

我笑說那就叫我星期四好了，成人版的星期三。

The truth is, once you were Wednesday, never more the same. 

Maybe you could evolve or grow up, so to speak,  into Thursday, but there's always a before that is Wednesday inside of you, underneath your skin. Like it or not. It is what it is. You can pretend it's not there or fool urself. But ur body, aka ur emotional mental spirit body, would remember it quite clearly.

身體的記憶是很驚人的，嗯，身體不是只有肉體， 身心靈的各方面層次， 會在不經意的時刻， 鮮明的跳出來，和你揮手說哈囉

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話說完整的人： 一但完全擁抱了自我或者所謂的愛自己， 那不管哪個day都是一個完整的day了，不是嗎？

然而愛是有極端性的， 全然的付出或自私的極端黑白傾向。

啊 這一切都很有趣呀！

不過有趣的有時也具有折騰人的特色 哈哈 🤣

我個人喜歡比較不對稱真實的東西， 因為人類就是這樣啊😸

分享個我愛喝的cider， 自從青少年在美國就開始愛上cider了， 有個木質香的味道混著水果味

取自~啦啦的隨手紀~12/25/2022

love behind everything

 喜歡看年輕女孩活在當下的不拘

也鍾愛成熟女人回眸謎樣的笑容

那個的這個的

都在我心裡

你愛上的

並不是

一個女人

或傳說中的女神

那個完美但遙不可及

你愛上的

是

一條川流入海的

唱著歌跳著舞的

在林間花叢裡穿梭著的

抱著樹喃喃緩緩的

正在伸著懶腰披頭散髮的

正在喝著午茶聆聽收音機的

在喜怒哀樂的紅毯上跌跌撞撞依然邁步走著的

迴迴轉轉層層次次靜靜呼吸的

流動著屬於獨特旋律而又平凡節奏的

一首詩

-最近上完「love behind everything 」的課還在感受中某天搭捷運時突然腦中開始出現的字句

Trilogy Shorts

「未來愛麗絲 Future Alice」

最佳女主角 Best Actress Award | 坎城短片節 Cannes Shorts Film Festival France 2022

*中文Podcast訪問 Taiwan Podcast Interview*

https://open.spotify.com/episode/0BAdQLmEsz6hkBENsHZTnq?si=Keyl2iD0QS-dt-KsaJCo1A

*Trailers 預告片*

1. Future Alice 未來愛麗絲 :

https://vimeo.com/816614363

2. Falling Velvet 落紅:

https://vimeo.com/816619873

3. Miss V Going to W: 

https://vimeo.com/848404691

*For Full discussions/Artist Talk @ the 2023 Stockholm Cinema Program*

https://vimeo.com/861577501

*For other video_film writeup/interview*

1) https://issuu.com/delm42/docs/stigmart_videofocus_special_edition_nkq--

2) https://issuu.com/delm42/docs/______4224_book